Internship insight

Sometimes it makes me wonder what will it take for me to give my attention to God? It is easy to have your mind and body overwhelmed with things to do and think about here at Metro. But what is it going to take to find the time to listen to God in all this stuff? On Sunday my division and I talked and prayed about 2 Cor 4:4-18 and 2 Cor 6:4-10. It talks alot about doing the impossible and to keep going among all the trials and being aware of the spiritual realm, things unseen and unknown to men. John Mac Aurthur explains it as pursuing God, Christ, the Holy Spirit and souls of men enough to consume the believer. (2 Cor 4:18)

I believe it is when we are in this realm that we can stand the test of keeping on. In the ministry while having great joy, you maintain it, even among all the trials when we get into the spiritual realm. I've tried working on this a series of times throughout life. Often times the energy that comes from the spiritual realm happens in those quiet moments with God. We must discipline ourselves to have this time, it is a struggle. Sometimes we make it, sometimes we break it. Always hope weather we make or break God can helps us, teach us and keep us moving forward.

Last week was a bit of a pickle, trying to keep excited and organized. Being "on the ball" with things during sidewalk can be a struggle. I really felt like I brought the team down. The pressure is always to do better, to improve. I mean for petesake it's hard enough to just maintain ones self. Yesterday the team kept giving me praise about how well I did, so now comes the pressure to stay pleasing to them.(also being aware its not about pleasing the team, but God). There is always a pressure, to do good, to keep doing good and to even become better. Flip that is hard.

(Note: I wrote this during internship 2009. And funny that a year later I still struggle with these same things. Flip.)