Opportunities

Door 1 Duncan youth at Bethel
Door 2 Nanaimo a job, church and bikes
Door 3 Calgary Lori and friends
Door 4 Ontario youth at Riverdale
Door 5 Ft. MacMurray construction and friends

I sit here and wonder because I am unsure of what I am doing
Oppertunities arise all around each day, many I believe have swung bye a small drizzle or standing right infront of me. I must miss so many yet I cannot do them all.

What is God? Who is the Holy Spirit have I heard the voice or hardened my heart, how can I know? So much remains a mystery, my train of thought on the "right choice" always changes. I just don not think I understand, I am confused and unsure of my decisions on what to do and where to go.

I have made my decision was it God's lead or my choice? Is my desire although I am unsure of it God's desire? Was it God's calling when the oppertunity aroused? Was it his lead and spirit lead? 4 doors opened before this one, really I could have taken any one. Did I miss the best oppertunity? I cringe to think I may have.

So why did I chose the 5th oppertunity, they all had there pro's and con's and I couldn't look at you straight in the eye saying the 5th was best for me. What one was best God? Have I let it pass bye? Have I been blind to it? Do I not see clearly?

I say to God take my life control me where to go, but has it happened this way, I do not know? The doors opened at there times and some have probably been closed by now. Why did it work out this way? It remains a mystery to me and I am not in fulness at peace with what I've chosen, but pehaps enough to move on.

Did God chose for me, did he control my heart to choose the 5th door? Was choosing this way a mutual choice, God was it your desire for me, was it the best for me, the next best step? I am not in fulness at peace that it was.

God I want the best for me so give me wisdom to understand what is best.
Opportunities arise each day swinging bye small drizzles or standing right infront of me, God help me not to miss them.

Let wisdom guide me to the right choice, let it give me confidence about my decisions, taking away the confusion and bringing about understanding.
Lead me Lord that our decision would be mutual, that I love to do waht you set forth, hungering it and craving for it. I want the best, not the best as I may see it but as you and I see it together. God make the vision clearer to me.

Lets journey together Lord keep giving me the hunger that I may be in fulness at peace living a life for you.