Seminar Pastor Bill

If you want something that you never had, you need to do something that you have never done.
A question that may arise is are you angry enough to do something, because everyone talks much but does little.

Many of us are not satisfied with the normal and so we want to CHANGE something.

John 5 Pool 50ft x 100ft The invaled here was not satified and for 38 years. How is it that you can go somewhere with a desire for change and 38 years later nothings happened, nothing changed? It is easy to go with the norm just kinda coast by getting used to that with what you where at first not satified with. Jesus asked the invalid "Do you want to get well?" As Bill put it "Are you willing to do what you need to do to be healed?" because the invalid didn't just sit there and then what needed to be done was done, no, Jesus said "Get up! pick up your mat and walk. It requires an action, rise up take up your crutch (excuse)and go. This is the essence of change take and go.

If I where to talk to you within 3 minutes I better find out your passion. People who are are great have ideas, good people talk about things stuff money, weak people talk about other people and thier accomplishments because they have no life. If you have a passion and an idea to CHANGE something, then it will be mentioned when you introduce yourself to someone.

CHANGE

To bring about change you need to reach a new level of commmunication. We need to communicate our purpose and role as Christians, unfortunatly in a lot of ways we Christains have let the world define who we are. The world is watching us Christians, but they are not listening, because thing is we Christians talk much but do little. Oh the worlds all heard what where about, our purpose and what we satnd for and now thery are watching. Peter stepped out of the boat, listeneing when Jesus said "come" and what where all the other disciples doing? Watching. So people are looking to see if you actually do what you say, your role and purpose. Do you practice what you preach because 83% of what people learn is from thier eyes. For example:
A pastor preaches on commitment and giving your all meanwhile he is in the process of resigning from the church. After the sermin a few kids take thier bibles and throw them in the dumpster. The sin isn't in the emotional thought of giving up, it is when you actually give up. You want people to change, you want people to listen? Then you have to do what you say bescaue many people will not do what you say but will do what they see. It is by seeing and doing that you are empowered to do, to act, to change, and this is an experience. Do more and talk less because it is buy your doing that people may follow.

To CHANGE you need to reach a new level of caring. It is easier to make a contribution than a commitment. It is easier to write a cheque than meet people face to face. A contrbution requires little time little effort, commitment requires much time and much effort. Church should be like a staff meeting where we come together and get charged and equipped for the week to "Get up! pick up your mat and walk." Instead for many its put on the all caring all loving face at church and thats it, Monday I've got my world face on so untill next week see ya later. See they put little time and little effort into church, no commitment here. Question is do you care enough about what is said at church to do what was said? Are we really reaching people? Are you making an impact because it requires a transition out side of the box, above the normal north american way of caring. For example:

A guy doing road construction is in his truck painting the yellow lines in the middle of road. There is a dead cat on the road ahead, but he doesn't stop to take the cat off the road, he paints right over it. The guy argues "I paint the line but I do not move cats." In order to CHANGE you need to reach a new level of caring.

To CHANGE you need to commit. Do what ever it takes, whatever the cost, the problem is we can get to concerned with offending people cause believe me you tell the truth and goats will be offended, but to the goats whoes hearts are ready and you think well who could that be? Answer is we do not know therefore cast seed on all ground cause nothing can grow if the seed isn't planted. Knowone can hear if a person doesn't speak. After Bill Wilson has been shot 3 times stabbed, been in 3 airplane crashes people will often ask him, "How do you keep going?" Bill says "I keep going and do not give up because my comittment is stronger than my emotions." The sin is not necessarily in the thought of giving up, the sin is when you do give up.

So people ask Bill, "Did God call you to New York?" Bill says, "No, the need is the call. You come to a place and you get angry enough to do somthing about it, this is the call, a responsibility to rise up, step up, "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk." Do it.

Isaiah 6 "Here I am. Send me!"
In the Church many have read about God, been taught about God but haven't really got to know who God really is because you need to get close. Now Isaiah contrains he was kept close in the temple that filled with smoke and in this close moment he says "Woe to me! I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips" now notice the word lips cause talk to someone long enough and out of the abundance of the heart comes the reply of the tongue. Isaiah saw the Lord it whent from an upward vision (seeing) to an inward vision (Woe to me) to an outward vision (response: Here I am. Send me!). I never new Jesus was all I needed until Jesus was all I had. Jesus is enough.

Gods ways should be the norm because his ways are the norm. However to the ones that do not get it, who are blind, and do not see, even if they think they do, well God's ways seem abnormal to them, and they'll either be offended or attracted because God isn't boring he's all about doing things his way, and his way will bring about CHANGE it will be diffrenet, beyond and against that wich is broken, blind not seening and abnormal.

To the unbelievers I say beleieve the abnormal to be normal, simply accept it to be true. To belivers do the things you have not done before the normal things because if you want something that you never had, you need to do something that you have never done.

Opportunities

Door 1 Duncan youth at Bethel
Door 2 Nanaimo a job, church and bikes
Door 3 Calgary Lori and friends
Door 4 Ontario youth at Riverdale
Door 5 Ft. MacMurray construction and friends

I sit here and wonder because I am unsure of what I am doing
Oppertunities arise all around each day, many I believe have swung bye a small drizzle or standing right infront of me. I must miss so many yet I cannot do them all.

What is God? Who is the Holy Spirit have I heard the voice or hardened my heart, how can I know? So much remains a mystery, my train of thought on the "right choice" always changes. I just don not think I understand, I am confused and unsure of my decisions on what to do and where to go.

I have made my decision was it God's lead or my choice? Is my desire although I am unsure of it God's desire? Was it God's calling when the oppertunity aroused? Was it his lead and spirit lead? 4 doors opened before this one, really I could have taken any one. Did I miss the best oppertunity? I cringe to think I may have.

So why did I chose the 5th oppertunity, they all had there pro's and con's and I couldn't look at you straight in the eye saying the 5th was best for me. What one was best God? Have I let it pass bye? Have I been blind to it? Do I not see clearly?

I say to God take my life control me where to go, but has it happened this way, I do not know? The doors opened at there times and some have probably been closed by now. Why did it work out this way? It remains a mystery to me and I am not in fulness at peace with what I've chosen, but pehaps enough to move on.

Did God chose for me, did he control my heart to choose the 5th door? Was choosing this way a mutual choice, God was it your desire for me, was it the best for me, the next best step? I am not in fulness at peace that it was.

God I want the best for me so give me wisdom to understand what is best.
Opportunities arise each day swinging bye small drizzles or standing right infront of me, God help me not to miss them.

Let wisdom guide me to the right choice, let it give me confidence about my decisions, taking away the confusion and bringing about understanding.
Lead me Lord that our decision would be mutual, that I love to do waht you set forth, hungering it and craving for it. I want the best, not the best as I may see it but as you and I see it together. God make the vision clearer to me.

Lets journey together Lord keep giving me the hunger that I may be in fulness at peace living a life for you.

Kaleo Ministry S:2

Kaleo has come to its end with lots of great memories and good things to keep in mind. It is a little odd living with 26-35 people for 8 months and then all leaving and splitting ways never knowing when or if we will ever see each other again. Life goes on, again some farmilliar places to see as well as new places. You never really know who you will cross paths with again it is part of the surprises in life.

It has been awesome learning the importance of God and people in my life. I remember going to a church "Bible Truth" in Kamloops and there motive was to love God and love people. The emphasis has poured out to me on this subjedct throughout the year understanding more about the living Christ in his people, and brothers who could now appear enemies really could be our brothers, who really knows? God knows.

I struggle alot with my own abilities and have continued to throughout the year, however my hope lies within the belief that God really does have a plan and purpose for me and all who will humbly accept his word can join in the body, the family of the living God, it is a beautiful thing. I have learned more about the importance of Jesus Christ and how no lies we would be screwed without him! The picture is becoming more clear now, but there is much more to learn and this should be a joy and a hope to grow a deeper and larger passion for Jesus. I seek wisdom and to avoid evil, and have the holy spirit open my mind to understand the scriptures! This is my hope and prayer for my brothers and me. It is an encouraging thought to know that the Lord is patient with us (2 Peter 3:9) and that he interceeds for the believers (John 17:20-26). If you read the scriptures and believe that they are true this type of thinking can make the impossible possible.

It is time to tree plant soon and I really hope that I will continue to seek the Lord, that my soul would yearn for him at night and in the morning my spirit would long for him (Isaiah 26:9). That I my lamp would keep burned realizing this is not my own life, but the Lords. My prayer for me and everyone is that he would search our inmost being taking out the filth and corruption leading us on to a more holy life for his sake, the kingdom. Let us not fear people but fear God.

S:2 Kaleo Min: "What Matters? "

Slowly awakening mind swirling all around with thoughts. It's a brand new day sun shining choices to make, so big, so small, confusing and straight forward. Right from the beginning sin crouches at the door and desires to have me. I am no great man, sick as a dog, dirty as a pig, will I overcome it?

The mind traces back and forth oh what to do, be passive or keep upright? I believe hesitation is a snare in our temptations, it's almost like be bold from the start or not be bold at all. However we might break trough, but only to be tempted again, it is an on going battle facing evil each day. Each one is tempted by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

I sit here and wonder were will I be in a year, 5 years 10? What is my motive in life, a passion or desire? It seems they somewhat change all the time, I can't fix my mind on something or be totally driven for anything in particular. The human mind is so messed up, confused and unsure, or proud not and caring, or caring but knowing how to use the care. Maybe I'll be a famous drummer, win the 2010 crank worx slope-style comp, own a bike shop, be a missionary, youth paster, carpenter, or maybe I'll die tomorrow. And what if I died, would I have accomplished all I wanted, all I desired? If I did would it really matter? Life can seem so meaningless and pointless. There is a time live and a time to die, and what after that? So what is my hope, were does my heart really lie, what does it long for, what really matters?

There is something out there, something beyond that every being longs for. There is something to live for, and live with, it is not so far away. "But the person who keeps her head up so she can look out toward the future of others-this is a person with some range to her hope." (Cornelius Plantinga Jr. Engaging God's World: A Christian Vision of Faith, Learning, and Living.) Live by this.

(Gen 4:6) (1 James 1:14) (Ecc 1:2-11,3:2) (Gal 5:16-25).

Kaleo Min S:2 (friendship)

People say friends come and go. They say, “sometimes friendships break apart as we grow and are character changes, thus separating each other’s interests, creating less of a desire for each other.” However today I heard a saying, "True friendship is one that includes personal interests but goes beyond even that." So really just because I grow to have different interests should I let go of my former friend? They say, “A true friendship is one that lasts forever.”

I know of people who have a best friend from grade school that perseveres even into marriage life, and I'm not talking about literal family here. This must be something really special, but is it "better" or just different, than someone who just simply can't seem to find a best friend, but definitely has friends? Some say girls are more for having best friends than boys. I would say this varies among sex.

The huge blessing to “be with” a person definitely creeps in here. Think about the traveler, the one meeting new people and places all the time, as appose to the one who lives in the same place all there life. When we think of friendship we think of time, energy, precious moments spent together. Is it not a gradual process trough these times with each other that makes the friendship ever more growing and advancing? Is this not what helps us to love each other more and more? Being with a person is something so unique of it’s own compared to that of the distant or of communication through technology. This uniqueness tends to lean me toward the idea that being with a person surly is a better way of relationship in friendship.

What about the popular friend, the one who has many companions, as appose to the one who maybe has one or two friends, but they stick closer than brothers. The one of many may come to ruin (Pro 18:24), but this is not certain. Again which one is “better”, or is it not a matter of better but just different?

A lot of so I'll say friends in high school I barely say a word to anymore, some not even a word, is this a problem? Am I responsible to hold such a love as this, or is this out of my position or league as human, even though my desire is to grow more in love as God would GIVE it to me? Can I relate this question to (Pro 16:1-4) and just simply commit? My desire become God’s desire?.....

Harry Unger brought us to the story of David and Jonathan again. Now these guys had a strong friendship, possibly something like soul mates. Jonathan was very fond of David (1 Samuel 19:1). So this creates the idea that they enjoyed each other and shared the same feelings of equal amount to each other. Even though Jonathan's own father wanted David killed it is much like Jonathan’s act of loyal defense helped him to stand up for David and speak well of him in front of Saul (19:4-5). Harry Unger says, "A true friend is like a loyal Defense standing up for it's lover." This is really like an unselfish love, looking for the best in each other. There is also the idea of equalness, yet there are no doubt different levels of friends we have. For example the mate as appose to a friend, or again is this a matter of not level but difference? Just to add I am hinting at level in the sense of better.

I cannot possibly love everyone in such a way let alone even one person! Matt B. says, "All humanity is drenched, soaked in sin from head to toe because of what happened in the Garden of Eden." "out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, hateful talk to another (Matt 15:19).

Really I may look good on the outside but what is on the inside? What is really going on in my mind? I cannot deny that without God Jesus and the Spirit it would be impossible for me to be humble. I need the roles of the Trinity to keep me from any type of evil. Of course looking at the level of friendship God really desires is far more than I could ever achieve, and on top of this I really do not see the totality of God’s desire.

So yeah, “be like Jonathan first,” but we must know if he was really doing all these great things he must have been a man after God's own heart, for if it is about myself than I must be out there to please people, but if it is about God than I would rather obey him than man. David at this time in the story was innocent and Saul had no good reason to kill him (19:5). Likewise did the chief priests and elders have any good reason to kill the Messiah (Matt 27:20-23)?

Yeah this is pretty wild, to actually lay down my life, sacrifice, for others, for friends. Ha yeah I really do not quite understand all this but it ever so seems to lead this way. Ultimately God could only ever know. Again one in spirit is something to ponder.

Kaleo Min S:2

Thinking about: gradually, friendship, love, time, heart, hope, be with, GIVE, humility, content, believe, evil, sinful nature-Spirit, oh and freedom as appose to God's will.
You know life is a wired thing sometimes. Sometimes you have days were you are really not too sure what to think, or well you cannot come to any conclusions about your thoughts. You almost have an answer and then it passes, or another thought creeps in. Maybe I am just thinking too much, but I like to think. Actually sometimes I wish my mind could go blank for a few hours. It is actually pretty messy and when people ask me how my day is or about events, it's like, well I could say it was good but really it seems like it is so much more than that. But do they really want to hear the whole shpeeel or am I under estimating the meaning of good? Good, the word is used so often and can become really annoying to use, yet sometimes all I want to say is a simple word like "good" cause I don't feel like talking, or expressing what I really think. Sometimes there is so much going on in the mind, so I say "I dunno?" cause really I do not know what I am thinking.
Why do I have to be so unsure about things all the time? I wish I could be more confident, yet there are times were I am pretty darn confident. Hmmmm, yup it is foggy yet clear times.
Ever have times where you think about God, Jesus the Spirit, their roles and how amazing it is? They are beyond my mind, really phenomenal and then tears start to well up in the eyes, wow ahhh moments, just little ones. I'm not really sure what is going on here, ya I'm pretty messed up, but I'm guessing everyone else is too, to some degree. It is kind of cool though being messed up, yet very annoying. Times are mountainous and it doesn't really seem to stop.
Thinking about: gradually, friendship, love, heart, hope, be with, GIVE, humility, content, believe, evil, sinful nature-Spirit, oh and freedom as appose to God's will.
"BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" There's a scream for ya! It's cool, and this is life.

Kaleo Ministry S:2

Wow oh wow I really don't realize God's character.
I am nothing, so are they.
I am human, so are they.
I was created so, so were they.
God GAVE me life, and to them as well.
God GAVE me the ability to be like him, and to them as well (Gen 1:28).
Now it is GIVEN to us at Full, the Spirit (not just the spirit, but just the spirit)
Questions:
Life or death? Spirit or sinful nature? Rom 8:6
But really what is there all to know about sinful nature? I do not fully know! The question of Alex arises again, "Is Jesus enough for me?" Well, Paul must have figured it out, he says, "I have learned to be content, whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, weather well fed or hungry, weather living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who GIVES me strength."(Phil 4:11-13)(Important to keep in mind everything God wants, not me). I say to myself, "God I'll do anything for you, take my life", well do I really realize what I’m asking? I don't believe I do. If I had no mother, no father, no sister, no friends, no bicycle, no food, no water, nothing, could I see Jesus as everything? Would Christ alone be enough? These are important questions I believe I should ask. Perhaps God would GIVE me that extra faith in Christ in that time? We are called as disciples to put God before everything in our life (Luke 14:26). Yet Paul urges us to love people more and more (1 The4:10), that they would receive the crown of life (Philip 4:1). Running that race for the crown that last forever (1:Cor 9:25). Fighting to win people, longing for them to receive this joy and the crown. It must be a love that keeps growing, this is really quite insane! If I persevere trough this it will get ugly. There is going to be pain and suffering. I have experienced some already, but things are always growing and advancing with God, isn't that what it's all about with him? I hope God teaches me more about this. He GIVES all things. The question is, will I in real love and in humility of myself, accept, take and use that which he GIVES to me and use it for the Kingdom? Do I believe enough that he would GIVE me desire and joy for this?

Kaleo Ministry S.2

This week at youth I met a lot of the youth's parents. We, well mostly Amanda, told them about what we do and what its all about. There is some concern for members in our youth, I'm hoping that the ones we are concerned with will make it to the lift off event Feb 1,2. Hopefully I'll get the chance to hang with them and share some quality moments. Today at church we talked about Jonathan. "Jonathan became like one in spirit with David, and he loved David as he loved himself"(1 Sam 18:1). That is quite a remark right there, the word "as". It makes me question myself again, do I love myself, am I happy with what I'm doing? Am I able to look back and see myself growing, looking for the best in things? Can learn to love myself, and I believe loving the things God is growing in me? Things like deeper love for people, and more desire to live with God through the Son. I hope Jesus continues to reveal himself to me, so that I can learn to accept each person, as Christ has already has. Also in accepting these people that I would accept God's words. To hope that I would continue to search for meaning and understanding like a hidden treasure. But really do I? really will I? To really truthfully dive into all this, I do not fully understand how. I wish I had all the answers, but really I cant, so should I seek what I can't have? So I begin to think gradually, gradually may God show me the way that I might understand better as days go by and months, and years, decades. "One in spirit," that is something for me to think about, but please show me God!
(Pro 2, Romans 15:7)

Kaleo Ministry S-2

So it is semester 2 and we just studied the Pentateuch. I really like these first four books It can really reveal to you more of the story in the Bible. Also it can give you more of a understanding of why things are the way they are. In Deuteronomy it talks a lot about the heart and how people were either serving God or rejecting God depending on were there heart was at. There is this idea of Jesus coming to fulfill the law, which is amazing and I'm working a little on trying to figure out the difference between what the patriarchs and Moses experienced as appose to what we can now experience as we have Christ and the Spirit. Little words with huge meaning like, love, friendship and being with people, I am learning more about. These words are all separate yet they all sort of need each other to be fully at work, fulfilled in their work, or something like that. I'm working on the idea of caring for people, I'm realizing more about how I alone cannot care enough.
Hairy Unger has been doing sermons on friendship lately and that has been really good for me. (John 15:12-17 and I Samuel 14). God chose us first, and he is looking for someone to fight for “them”. Yeah I’ve heard it so much but I do not fully understand.
My prayer is that God can show me how to really love, care and live life in a way that would please him. Through time more understanding can come. I hope I do not waste this time. So God keep revealing more about you to me!! There is hurt, pain and confusion, misunderstandings, anger and yet there is something beautiful about this.

LOVE

So I have been dealing a lot with the topic of LOVE and finding deeper meaning about it. If there is one thing to really grasp about God it is that he chose us first! This relationship we can have with Christ I would like to describe to the extent of one that you might have for a significant other. God did choose us first, and it is amazing, but this doesn't make it complete. Now we also have to choose him. This is the only way for that real and true LOVE to work; both peoples poring into each other, this is the key, but you must know it in your heart! Yes I have known this for a long time, but there is something about knowing it in your head, and knowing it in your heart. There is a great difference. I believe God is working more on my heart, and it's is not always comfortable, in fact it is crazy hard at times, so hard.

When you grow to love someone in a way that some would say "more than a friend" it is a very special thing. Something to be cherished, something you greatly do not want to let go of, or have things go wrong. Yet I truly believe Christ’s love coming from God greatly exceeds even such a love as this. So when you love a person in such a way and then destruction happens, and things go wrong it is crushing to the soul. It hurts. But think, God loves us so much more! Imagine the pain he must go through when we do not choose him! Life can be so hard and yet through this I at times have such an urge to show others real love that only could come through Jesus. My heart is being stirred as it so feels, perhaps being molded? It is a suckey process, I feel like I hate it at times, yet at the same time deep down I feel that this is good, soo good.

Love is such a huge topic and I know that there is so much more for me to "get" or understand about it. Today I had communion and I finally felt like I wanted to take part in it, like I was feeling "this sense", or just a little more of what Jesus did and what it was all about. It is one thing to hear folks, but it is something so much more and so much "better" to know in your heart meaning, understanding. Communion today was in a way a big deal to me as I have struggled with taking part in communion for about the past year. Of course things are not totally fulfilled "within" yet, never be totally. I am growing, yes I believe in Christ growing.

Humans can be such a blessing yet they can be so hurtful, and sometimes they just unintentionally hurt, or they make a decision that may be best for them. Regardless it still hurts so much. I'm in a process of trying to heal over such a hurt, and it is so hard! So hard! I love that I can know God/Christ/Spirit is with me at this time. I also love that there are people who can help.

God help me at this time, it is like I am emotional and cry often. I have often thought to myself lately Love is patient, it is just a process that takes time, living, breathing, tasting, doing, thinking this is life!........

LOVE LOVE LOVE, HARD HARD HARD, GOOD GOOD GOOD, LOVE LOVE LOVE