Thinking about: gradually, friendship, love, time, heart, hope, be with, GIVE, humility, content, believe, evil, sinful nature-Spirit, oh and freedom as appose to God's will.
You know life is a wired thing sometimes. Sometimes you have days were you are really not too sure what to think, or well you cannot come to any conclusions about your thoughts. You almost have an answer and then it passes, or another thought creeps in. Maybe I am just thinking too much, but I like to think. Actually sometimes I wish my mind could go blank for a few hours. It is actually pretty messy and when people ask me how my day is or about events, it's like, well I could say it was good but really it seems like it is so much more than that. But do they really want to hear the whole shpeeel or am I under estimating the meaning of good? Good, the word is used so often and can become really annoying to use, yet sometimes all I want to say is a simple word like "good" cause I don't feel like talking, or expressing what I really think. Sometimes there is so much going on in the mind, so I say "I dunno?" cause really I do not know what I am thinking.
Why do I have to be so unsure about things all the time? I wish I could be more confident, yet there are times were I am pretty darn confident. Hmmmm, yup it is foggy yet clear times.
Ever have times where you think about God, Jesus the Spirit, their roles and how amazing it is? They are beyond my mind, really phenomenal and then tears start to well up in the eyes, wow ahhh moments, just little ones. I'm not really sure what is going on here, ya I'm pretty messed up, but I'm guessing everyone else is too, to some degree. It is kind of cool though being messed up, yet very annoying. Times are mountainous and it doesn't really seem to stop.
Thinking about: gradually, friendship, love, heart, hope, be with, GIVE, humility, content, believe, evil, sinful nature-Spirit, oh and freedom as appose to God's will.
"BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" There's a scream for ya! It's cool, and this is life.
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I agree, life is so much more then good, and yet sometimes there is no other word for it. I have been thinking a lot about respect and how little of it we have for one another. We ask how people are but we don't really care, it's just the thing to ask; part of a greeting. We just tolerate everything and we stop asking questions we stop thinking because it makes us more confused then if we had just not asked or thought about it in the first place. I think that is one of our greatest faults, all this to say keep thinking Arlan, even if it makes you feel messed up. I mean really, who wants to sit on the edge clean, when theirs a mud pile to discover! much love to ya Bro!
Thanks Lori, you are a blessing! And I mean it! But really sometimes I really do think I think too much!!! Or perhaps think about things that aren't important like worry and such, but it's all so hard to get rid of. Yup.
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